How I had to deal with Fibromyalgia

Today I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and I have to say for many years I truly did not believe in this aweful disabling disease.  I felt that doctors just put a name on your pain because they could not find anything else wrong with you.  Well today I succommed to the diagnosis because nothing else has been working for me.  Now having a name to my total horrific pain that I have been experiencing has given me a reason to fight.  I refuse to let this disease keep me down or make me disabled. 

My pain had become so bad that I could not sleep, could not hardly get around and no test pointed anything wrong with me.  Of course I have been stressed but seriously this was something that was beyond any stress.

So how am I going to deal with it,  something I never believed in? I'm gonna give it my all, believe that my new doctor is great and is willing to help me understand my disease, take the medications he has prescribed and keep on moving.  After all I have always been a fighter, never let anything get me down and by God this is not going to get me down either. 

When you live in pain every single day, you just want it to stop.  You want it to end but with this there is no end.  You fight every day of your life to stay mobile, to not give in, to try to be as normal on the outside as you can while suffering on the inside so badly.

Now I can move on with a name to this aweful pain I have, try to not stress and try to not let it get the best of me. 

My new doctor didn't question my need for pain medication because he believed me that I was in pain.  He did not question my need for anxiety medication because he knew I was anxious.  He listened, he cared, he spent the time with me I needed and did not rush me out like a herd of cattle.  I needed that.  He explained to me about my disease and why it occurs and that there are no test to confirm a diagnosis but that you have to know that what I am experiencing is real.

So now I am taking the bull by the horns to get my life back to normal, as normal as I can and to pray that I will prevail and that God will help me in my situation.  I know I will have good days and bad days but I will never let it consume my life to the point that I will let it take over me.